in ways it is reassuring to know that people remember me, though it always a surprise to see. thank you for sending me a message - i know though how terrible i can be for making responses and i don’t know how to apologise enough for that, though i am very sorry
there is something very corrosive about me and it causes so much destruction and I do not know myself well enough to stop it
does anybody ever feel as though they are not themselves? as though they aren’t completely there in a way and it is somebody else?